In facebook, DU started a new album. It 's theme is old memories or basically, memories from college life. It contains only a few pictures, the ones I guess is most important to him (maybe he'll add more later). Anyway, there is one photo among them, that's entitled Goa trip with my seniors' and consists of all the guys sitting in a straight file on a wall. Maybe, its because it is 'today', I dunno, but that photo heightened my awareness and had me searching for Sibil . And , when I found him sitting second from right, I heard myself saying 'oh sweet Zibil'.
Deaths are too devastating. The loss you feel just claws within you, kind of tearing your heart apart. I don't understand why Chinchu did what she did! Why did she have to die? Why did she want to kill herself! I..
I can't say she is my friend, but we used to be quite friendly.And I always thought best of her. I remember, when we all went for the retreat, and initially, due to circumstances, we just found to be in each other's company. And she was wonderful. She had a great sense of humour, no obligations about saying the truth to a person's face(u'd still like her), and I saw her being a star at that place....after which, I kind of lost her, you know, she being the star and all. But, whenever i had to access her, its always always based on that. She was a great girl.
I dunno if its the news of her death, that's hampered me today. Everything just went right down after hearing it. I am fine, just fine, but deadly sad. Its like being numb. I broke the polishing pad, and then I found, the clamping forks we ordered don't fit..I feel so screwed, on top of all tis sadness!!! And as per Jon , the compressor isn't getting alright..its overall a baad baad day. Its so obvious if you just look outside, its such a windy day.....wind of such force that it can misalign your path.
Dear God, I know not why she did what she did. But , her loss is something tremendous. I pray oh God, I pray for her parents, and her brother n family. I pray don't anything bad come to her. I pray for Zibil....
Oh dear dear Lord
help us all.
Amen.
